Elusive Reconciliation

Here I am, still

Trying to find reconciliation

With the things you did

And the many you didn’t.

It’s been a while now

Yet I haven’t moved a day

Beyond the day you left me.

Playing it like a film

Over and over in my head

Why must this be so hard?

Why must I care?

Maybe I live in delusion

This place of dreams I have built

Often they turn into nightmares.

Chained up as in a dungeon

With the illusions of escape.

Tell me is this fair?

Life’s joke at my expense

Are you laughing along my dear?

Or are you blissfully unaware?

I don’t know which I prefer

It’s not my choice to make, anyway.

This reconciliation I will find

But I wonder how much longer the wait.

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